Saturday, August 28, 2010

22 Months

At the beginning of the month, there was the official end of summer vacations around here, mom was off of work for the first week of August, we went down to Burlington for a day, we went to bleu lavende, on a mother/daughter day with rachelle and ruthie...we ate at the ripplecove inn...it was lovely. Then, just when I thought that things were going to slow down a little...I had forgotten a small detail about the month of august...




My brother has been organizing a ball hockey tournament called Play it Forward Kids for the past 8 years. The proceeds of the tournament go to help underpriviliged kids get some sports equipment so that they can participate in sports that they otherwise would not be able to. It's a lot of work and every year he gives so much of himself to this tournament...and he loves it! Just to watch his face on the day of the tournament...and even more so on the day when the kids get to come and choose their sports equipment. Every year the tournament grows, and this year, it expanded to include 2 cities, Montreal and Kingston. The two tournaments were on back to back weekends in August. Both events were great successes...way to go, little brother! My "area of expertise" is registration (which I normally loathe) however, this year we brought technology to the park and registration was a breeze with the help of my laptop!!



With the help of my friend, we began working on the walls of the new kitchen at my moms. The room was used by the previous owners as a classroom for homeschooling, and there was a chalkboard on one wall and a corkboard on the other...the chalkboard needed to be covered with plaster...to smooth out all the millions of holes the previous owner put in the wall with a nail gun to put on the border of the chalkboard...I can assure you that you could have hung off the molding around the chalkboard and the wall would have fallen before the molding would have given way...there were so many nails! Repairing the corkboard wall was worse...they glued the corkboard to the wall and when we removed the cork, the glue stayed on the wall...so we had to scrape it off, and in the process damaged the wall underneath. So for the kitchen, I would say that for one whole week, it was plaster, plaster, and more plaster...and finally, the next week, paint! It is finally ready for the cabinets!!

We are still discussing the playroom...I think it won't be official until the paint is purchased!

Even with all the keeping busy the wait is getting to us...we don't want it to, we're trying to be patient, but I think we both never really thought that we would be waiting for this long...we both thought that we would have had our proposal by now. I realized recently that it is highly unlikely that we'll have our Little One home for Christmas this year and that was a sad, sad day. We know that it is all out of our control, and we know that we need to be patient and that God's timing is perfect. However, in those quiet moments when I'm alone, and the longing in my heart makes it hard to breathe...it just feels like the waiting will never end.

7 comments:

filipinobambino said...

"However, in those quiet moments when I'm alone, and the longing in my heart makes it hard to breathe...it just feels like the waiting will never end."

Oh how I remember this feeling. It makes my stomach hurt to remember it, the pain of it all was so much sometimes. I don't know what would have made it better back then except for getting a referral, so I know there's not much I can write to you now. But I hope it helps to know that you've got a whole community of people rooting for you and waiting with you. And the day you see that picture of your child, your heart will rejoice and hurt, but in a good way. It will hurt because it feels like your heart will explode from happiness. I can't wait for that day for you.

Méli said...

Congrats 22 months, it's great the call was closer now..
Mélissaxx

Kerrie (and Jason) said...

yep we have those quiet moments as well. You'll be busy and you will actually forget for a little while and then something happens (sometimes its as simple as driving past a child playing in their yard) and BAM it hits you again..

Hang in there. Everyone tells us our time will come as well. And feel free to vent when you need to as well! Sometimes getting mad and upset about it is the best medicine you can have.

Agnes said...

I think you should let yourself have those "quiet moments" and know that it's okay to have those feelings! You're in my prayers Tammie! I can't wait to see what God has in store for you! You're defnitely right about God's timing being perfect!!! One thing I know for sure, the 18 months we waited for a referral was preparing us for the strength we would need to continue "waiting" after seeing the face of our daughter. It does get a little bit harder, once you see your child and fall in love with them. So, as difficult as it seems, try to think about it as preparation. I am praying for you...

Tam-A-Roo said...

Thanks so much for your encouragement...It means a lot to me to know that I'm not alone, and that my feelings are a "normal" part of this process.

Agnes said...

Hi Tammie, I was just thinking about you today! Just wanted you to know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. Hoping you hear something real soon!!!

Agnes said...

Hi Tammie, I was just thinking about you today! Just wanted you to know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. Hoping you hear something real soon!!!